If I never took the first drink: no compulsion, no craving, no need for second, third and fourth – then oblivion.
If I never took the first drink: no mental obsession, no wondering where my next drink was coming from.
If I never took the first drink: I would feel good on a spiritual level.
If I never took the first drink: I would not be lying in my bed frantically trying to remember the night before, wondering what I said or who I upset.
If I never took the first drink: I would not be shaking, sweating, being sick and feeling awful in the physical sense.
If I never took the first drink: it would be nice listening to the wife and kids laughing and joking with each other. It would be good not to see hurt, anger and pain in their faces.
If I never took the first drink: it would be nice to not jump in the air when the phone went, or hide when there was a knock at the door for fear of who was there.
If I never took the first drink: it would be nice to walk down the street free from guilt, shame, anger, fear and remorse. Not to be scared of meeting people.
Because I never took the first drink, today I feel free. Today I can help people if asked. Today, I am here when I am needed.
Don’t take the first drink and you can’t get drunk, and a lot more as well. Today I am honest. I have changed. I can help people and have a Higher Power in my life.
Thank you, AA.
Kenny fae Denny
Sunday night
