False evidence appearing real
FEAR would rule my life – if I allowed it. Fear about what may or may not happen are only thoughts inside my head – they are not connected to reality. The most effective way to dispel my anxiety is to understand that my habitual fears have no supporting evidence.
They are simply anxious thoughts – and habitual. Changing those habits and my thinking has the effect of changing the way I behave.
I grew up inside an angry, fearful house with a constant feeling I had done wrong, and it was all my fault. I wouldn’t put my hand up in class, unless I was certain of the correct answer. I didn’t want to be laughed at or punished if I was wrong.
Today, I can understand why people say, “I’m grateful to be an alcoholic.” Joining AA has given me a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. That was to face my problems, not run away. AA was the beginning, certainly not the end of the line.
I enjoy two new activities that are intellectually demanding. They are not just about making new friends and using my brain. They help to silence that inner voice that tells me I’m stupid and not good enough.
I am good enough, and I can achieve. I enjoy a daily reprieve from an illness that nearly killed me. The Higher Power is always there, and I am worth it. I have been looked after. The evidence for self-doubt doesn’t exist. It’s only in my head – fear is invariably false evidence appearing real.
ANON
