Learning to Live

Learning to Live

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I was sitting by the water wondering what I was going to do, as I could not live with this pain and fear anymore. I couldn't live with alcohol, nor without it. All I wanted was to be a normal drinker. The fact that I was alcoholic, and could never drink again, never crossed my mind. I hated everything about myself, I was about to lose my job, and the arguments at home over my drinking were unbearable. So I went to my first meeting drunk, hoping to get my drinking under control. Instead what I witnessed were happy sober people who gave me a lot of hope, and lots of support, especially from the women in the Fellowship. I continued going to meetings and in time I was able to stop.

Surrendering myself, admitting I could never drink like a normal person was the best choice I have ever made. Working the Steps honestly and admitting to myself that I didn't have to drink again has been a gift from my Higher Power. I gave this obsession to God, who I keep close to me and have long conversations with. And I try to keep the Fellowship as close to me as I can. My life has changed so much. I have peace of mind, I'm honest, I try to help others, and I try to do as much service as I can. Before I only looked out for number one, who was me.

I am truly blessed to have found this Fellowship, I've learned how to LIVE which was something I've not done before. I no longer live in a prison in self. I am free and all thanks to Alcoholics Anonymous and the Twelve Steps and Traditions. 

Very grateful alcoholic