The Full Picture

My name is Adele and I am a very grateful alcoholic.

When I first came to work on the Twelve Steps with my sponsor, I initially saw them as a test or exam, to be got through as quickly as I could. It took me some time, and the patience and guidance of my sponsor, to view the full picture. Thinking about the full picture had never been one of my strong points. Instead, I grasped hold of only the things that I wanted to do or hear. I hadn't cared one jot for the consequences, or anyone else's feelings.

That was then, but today I have learnt a better, kinder and safer way to go through the rest of my life. Instead of looking at the Steps as a one-off exercise to be cast aside at the end of Step Twelve, I know deep in my being that all the Steps are a code for life, and must be lived each and every day if I am to remain sober and to be the person I am happy to know when I look in my mirror. Step Twelve for me is hugely important. I was given my life back and experienced a spiritual awakening which I am very humbled by. I need to carry this message of hope and love by example to still suffering alcoholics, which is a gift that I have been entrusted with. I am privileged to carry out service positions, including phone service, which keeps my feet on the ground and reminds me of where I have come from and where I could go back to if I become complacent or arrogant.

I find many opportunities to carry the AA message to others, and for these opportunities I am truly blessed. If I continue to practice these principles in all of my affairs, then I will always be worthy to help others. What more can I ask for?

ADELE, Sandhurst Saturday Newcomers