Night and Day

‘Our whole attitude and outlook on life will change’ – what a Promise for an alcoholic who could see no way out and prayed that tomorrow would never come. If only I could control or stop drinking everything would be okay. It was all about me – poor me. A huge change has happened because my eyes have been opened to life and the feelings of uselessness and self-pity have disappeared. The fear and loneliness have gone and instead I have gained interest in my fellows.

I thought that the depths I had reached in active alcoholism would be unacceptable to you and I would not be allowed to stay. Now I know that my experience can benefit others and today I do not regret the past as I try to help others in recovery. I remember the fear of having to face the world the next morning – Where was I? Who did I see? What happened? I’m broke again! Now fear of people and economic security have gone and the changes in my life, as shown above, seem like a fairy tale when I think back to how my life was. It is only through working the 12 Step Programme on a daily basis -with your help – that life is as it is now. I know today that AA is doing for me what I could not do for myself and that the Promises will always be fulfilled, yes in your life too, if we work for them.

David M