An Invisible Force
It happened like this. Having not worked in quite some time, and with the housing benefit coming to an end, meaning I'd lose my house, I was becoming very desperate. Having no computer at home I would go to the library and, with no jobs suitable to my qualifications to be had at home, I had started to contact teaching agencies in England. I remember at this time coming home from a meeting with my friend N. and we were joking around about me possibly working in England and she said, "Imagine if you got a school that came with accommodation too, ha ha." and you know what? That's exactly what happened! Which was just as well as I had zero cash at this point. One night whilst watching television (an old portable my friend N. had lent me and lying on my mattress bed on the floor) I saw this fly-on-the-wall documentary. I remember thinking, "God I miss my old job" and "He seems like a lovely headmaster." I kid you not, the following week a girl from one of the teaching agencies rang me up and asked had I seen that documentary. I replied I had. "Well" she said, "get your bags packed, 'cos you've an interview there next week!!".
To say I was surprised is an understatement and it's moments like these which definitely make me suspect there is a Higher Power. I think the agency even paid for the flight. Now as an alcoholic I get nervous changing my socks so switching countries was a terrifying prospect for me BUT I needed the money. This was to be my first sober flight. When I was drinking, I would have happily sat on the wing of a plane - indeed I might even have offered the pilot a few flying tips - so luckily the morning of that first sober flight I was sat on my own because I cried like a baby for most of it. I'm sure people thought I was demented. Just then something happened which to this day I do not understand. I felt the presence of a pair of invisible hands holding my shoulders and could almost see them and, noticing a black mark on one of the fingernails, I recognised them as my beloved father's hands, he must have been dead five years at that point. It calmed me down at any rate. When I landed in London, the girl from the agency picked me up from the airport in her lovely wee black sports car. Very kind of her I thought.
And so, began a new chapter in my life in England. 'A bridge to normal living', I think is the term.
PATRICIA