There But For The Grace Of God

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When I came into the Fellowship I hated everyone and everything - God included. After all wasn’t it you, you and yes, even you, God, who had caused me to be living this sad and miserable existence?

I had fallen out with God big style and there was definitely no chance of making Him my Higher Power. After all, where was He when I was down on my luck and wanting to die on a daily basis?

I was sharing from a top table one day and was describing a horrendous and potentially dangerous position I had put myself in one evening on a bender. A fellow member came up to me at the break and said “Your Higher Power must have been there that day.” The realisation came to me that even when I had turned my back on God, He didn't get miffed or resentful. He just carried on doing what He does best – loving and looking after me.

Time to eat humble pie. It was my illness which caused all the bad things in my life. Not you. You just simply picked up the pieces and handed them back in stages when you knew I was able to deal with sorting through the mess and devastation I had caused. I treated you so badly yet you still had the compassion to gift me with a desire to stop drinking. God, if you will have me – would you be my Higher Power because, There But For The Grace Of God.

Tere

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